27.5.07
future sight
with my life technically more complete now that i'm moving on from my job and continuing the pursuit of a driver's license and a membership to indancity, i'm having a pseudo- mid-life crisis.
  1. i don't know whether i'm doing enough for my future or i'm just wasting my life away. and then i wonder whether i should do enough for my future or just waste my life away.
  2. if i am to become the next spawn of evil, when would that be?
  3. i don't know how successful i intend to be. if i don't intend to set up a family (maybe adoption and pets) where are my priorities?
  4. i see everything i purchase as an investment. the only flaw in this is that i'm losing the grasp of what my investments actually lead to.
  5. i work as much as i want to stop thinking. i'm quitting next week, which means mucho time for rumination. fucks.

the point is that i'm happy, but obviously not satisfied and content now. but i'm taking tiny steps:
  1. driving classes commence again next month.
  2. shall bug indancity again. (and hiphop/salsa/jazz with ladc)
  3. the e-prep nonsense.
  4. i've decided on what to do for my 21st, if i ever get beyond thinking - costume-themed drinks/games party in a hotel room/chalet/whatever.
  5. and if i'm not mistaken, the world spun when we kissed.

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yunfei, male. born 16 oct 1986.
unfucked, unloved, unknown.